Spinning

So I haven't had a chance to blog in a bit because of a bunch of changes that have happened. Almost a week ago now, Outlaw and I split. It is a long story and it really hurts. We are still trying to remain friends as we are so close and I know that I for one, do not want to lose him from my life completely. I haven't been able to really express things which is another reason I haven't blogged about it. I needed the time to get my head around what happened and be able to put it in a way that made sense. When you fall for someone in SL, it does happen that things RL can come between. In a sense that is actually the biggest reason for the split. I am hurting but I have also realized the support system I have right now. One thing IRL (in real life) that I found out was when things go south in a relationship, you lose people around you for one reason or another they bolt. It is kind of a kick in the gut. I am sure it happens this way in SL as well but at this time, I honestly felt so much love. I fell into a very bad depression from the break up as my feelings were very much RL for Outlaw. My SL family, once they found out, came around me and have been helping me get back on my feet. I have been doing everything I could to keep busy with their help including spending a lot of time with the Bloodlines Clan I am in (look for a future post on this).

So Outlaw and I did find out about the sex of the baby but you all have to wait until the post late this week which is going to be done by Sadie. She was with us along with our daughter Tilly when we found out.

I am now 25 weeks along and so excited for the birth! We do have another appointment to discuss delivery and a final ultrasound. We also will decide on the date and time for the delivery. One of the beautiful features of SL is that most deliveries are scheduled!! It is so that everyone you want there, can be there. Of course Outlaw is still here for the baby through it all. He has helped me select a name and everything. I am sure the appointments and seeing him will be difficult but time will heal this and I am just glad hes sticking by me. One thing in second life that I have seen and it has happened to me is that when a break up happens and the woman is pregnant, either they just take off their huds or if they have the babies, the men are long gone, want nothing to do with it anymore. Unfortunately that is what happens because there is nothing keeping them there. I have known people to just act like it never happened.

Outlaw is still very much wanting to be involved but only if I was okay with it, which I am.

So other then that, I also left my job as a manager and went back to hosting at Ohana's Rock Club. I just didn't really need the added stress. I also didn't want to bury myself in work. The management job was also how I met Outlaw in the beginning and holds a lot of memories. With the new job, I also moved onto a new parcel, I built my own home, and have been getting that set up. I will be moving again next month though once I save a bit. This week I adopted 2 new children into my family. Darin rp (role plays) a 17 year old teenage boy and Savannah rps a 4 year old little girl. Both are very much a good fit into our family. Darin has joined forces with Tilly to make sure they drive me nuts! I came home to a flooded bathroom last night. Savannah is just a sweetie who LOVES exploring!! I am sure future blog post will contain more about the kids as well as rekindled friendships.

I have rambled enough for the night though and have a 6am SLT (Second Life Time which is 3 hours behind my time zone((EST))) set at Ohana's. Hugs & Love.